Week Fifty-Two

(This post is incredibly late due to being super sick with the twins!)

Happy Anniversary!

I can’t believe it’s been a year for two reasons: 1. It seems like it went by quickly. 2. It feels like we’ve always been together- in the best way possible.

This year has taught us both so many things about ourselves, each other, and us as a couple.

Just a hug or a kiss from you can make my day so much better. I’m glad that we’re an affectionate couple. It makes me sad to see people that barely touch. I think our kids will know how much we love each other because they’ll be able to see it and that makes me happy.

I didn’t think our love had any room to grow because I loved you so much already- but somehow it did. I love you in so many ways. You’re my husband, my lover, my friend, and the father of our twins. I don’t think you’ll ever know how deep my love for you goes.

All I can think of right now are incredibly sappy things to say. You make me feel all of those things. It’s your fault.

I’m looking forward to each day with you. I am so excited for our next adventure. Thank you for all the things you do to make me feel loved. I love you.

Week 51

This week we celebrated my birthday.... and by celebrated I mean that we got Japanese food and went to bed early. I was incredibly sick with nausea and you weren't feeling well either. This birthday didn't include a huge party like I usually have. This one was low-key with just you and me. Even though we didn't feel well, it was still nice to spend the day with you.

Later in the week we found out some crazy news. We are having TWINS! 
The funny thing is that we had been referring to them as "babies" off-and-on over the last few weeks. We both just had a feeling. We've also had this ongoing joke between us (before we even got married) that if we ever had kids we would probably end up having twins. We joked and joked about it.... and it happened. When the ultrasound tech told us we were having twins we both started laughing.

We're both overjoyed and still in shock. I keep saying that we're psychic and need to play the lottery. We laugh about it but seriously, we're having twins and we really need to win the lottery.

Thing to remember for this week: Twins will be twice the fun!

Week Forty-Eight

This week has been the most exciting one since we've gotten married.

We celebrated Christmas, sure, but that wasn't the most exciting thing.

On December 27, 2014 I took a test. In shock and disbelief I watched a plus sign appear. A few hours later I drove to the pharmacy and returned with a different test. This time two lines appeared.

It's true. This is real life. We're having a baby.

After taking my second round of Femara/Letrozole to help me ovulate (because I have PCOS), I did. And not only did I ovulate, but we made a baby. We made a person with our genitals. Ha ha. Neither of us thought that it would happen this soon. We're in shock and amazed and excited and terrified.

We are going to be parents!



Thing to remember from this week: Little Smith is coming in 2015!

Week Twenty-One

So this week has felt like one of those two steps forward, three steps back kind of weeks. The car is done. We have to get a new one. This is a setback that we did not plan for, especially with my new job starting in August. However, I’m confident that things will work out.

We visited your dad for Father’s Day which was awesome. I made mini fruit pizzas and everyone gobbled them up. This week we both had dreams about kids. I had a dream that we were sitting on our porch and you looked over at me and said we could start trying to have a kid next year so we could have a baby the following year. Then the next night you had a dream that we had a baby girl. Father’s Day just made me think about how amazing of a father you’ll be one day.

This week was finals week for me and I passed both of my classes. Woo-hoo! I’m so ready for you to start school so you can share in my insanity.

Things to remember from this week: Setbacks will bring new opportunities, Centipede season may kill me (they’re everywhere!), and the smile on our faces make the little things worth it.

Week Six

You had an interview for a new job today that you really want and I hope you get. I hope we both find jobs we like soon. We also went to our friend’s house and held her adorable newborn daughter. (This did not help my baby fever at all!) We’ve been around A LOT of babies lately. It’s ridiculous. I know that when the time is right we’ll have a little one.

I want us to hurry up and be successful so we don’t have to stress out so much for the rest of our lives. I want a house and money to actually be able to do the things we want. I know one day I will think about how things are now: our one bedroom apartment, the million cats that live outside, our one car (White Zombie), our lack of a washer & dryer and the pain in the ass it is to not have them, our less than plentiful wardrobes, and the stress of our finances. The one thing that I would not change is the love we have for each other. I know that no matter how mad I get at you, I am still uncontrollably, unwaveringly, in love with you. –And I know without a shadow of a doubt that you love me to. I hope that we never stop saying “I love you” as much as we do. I hope we never stop giving as many kisses or hugs as we do. Six weeks in and I am still 100% positive that you were the person I was supposed to marry and that feels pretty awesome.

Week Five

We’re five weeks in and I still love you every single day--- even the ones that you make me mad. I visited a friend and felt her stomach as her baby moved inside her today. It brought tears to my eyes and made me realize how much I want to feel that feeling. We’re not trying to have a kid. I know it’s not the right time in many ways. But I do like thinking about the possibility of one day having a kid with you---- a little Smith. Even though I have baby fever at the moment, I’m thoroughly enjoying my time with you while it’s just us. I know that there will come a time when we’ll wish for this time--- when between feedings and changings and the picking up of many colorful toys we’ll wish for a moment that we could have time for ourselves and sleep in. Right now though, I’m imagining our lives then. Every time I see you with a kid it makes me weak. You would be an amazing dad. I know it. I can feel it. There’s no one else on this earth that I know would be a better loving, protective, playful, awesome, father. One day it’ll be our turn to join that other side of adulthood like so many of our other friends have. For now, I’m happy to just be able to sit with you on our couch and watch countless episodes of our favorite shows on Netflix and curl up with you at night. I love being your wife every day. It always feels new and exciting and yet comfortable like this is just how it was supposed to be.